Waiting

Its officially 5 days since i met u n stil have 5 more days to pull thru. Goodness!! It is quite a suffering spending those days without u. Luckily u are not like those who went for 2 weeks reservist outstation. That is HELL!
I really miz u my baby love. Looking forward to the day i wil be back in ur arms. This time, as ur fiancee. Cant wait to wear that ring of our love.
So its proven that i cant live without u!

Engaging excitement

Its 4am in the morning n im stil awake. I feel like dozing off when i opened my eyes but when i did, i juz wont fall asleep.
The excitement is in my head n i cant imagine if i wil even get to sleep on the night before.
Yes! His representatives are actually coming over to my house to ask my hand in marriage n we wil be getting engaged!!
I know ive done dis before but honestly the feeling is totally different when u are getting hitched with someone whom i really want to spend for the rest of my life with rather than before, with someone who deep in my heart i was thinking if i can live with him in the future. Totally different feeling.
Finally, my heart is telling me, he is the one ive been waiting for. Im going to grow old with this man, stil goofing around with each other n laughing my weak, old ass off at his stupid jokes. I cant explain how happy i am.
As of today, 4th day without his touch n 6 more days to go before the ring gonna be slot thru dis finger n dats where its gonna stay.

Its the mrng of my 26th birthday n i'm still kinda sad wat happened on its eve. The family planned to go on a dinner which was claimed as a bday dinner since the favourite outsider wil be driving. It was said to be postponed on a later night wen i got to noe dey already left without even telling or asking me along. N to make the feeling worse, bf saw my younger sissy posting on fb(coz i do not have her in my list) saying dat she was going to a dinner wit the family to celebrate my bday.
So is this whole thing juz a plot to tell others dat u guys were really out celebrating my special day but the truth is i'm actually feeling hurt at hme wen u guys are having fun bonding wit the favourite outsider going around spore wit the rented car??
Goodness! I've never felt so hurt like dis before especially on dis day!

Bf gotta werk but i will mit him after dat for a dinner or something. So dis year, its juz a fucking bullshit bday which i wish i never had if i were to be hurt like dis. To top it up, getting sick on such a weekend.

But, all those simple bday wishes from the frens, bf n future in laws did made me smile. Thk u god for letting me live another year again..

Gossip gossip

I am getting annoyed wit dis hambe Allah yg takkan aku sebut name dia la. Ti org tu berdendam plak.
At first tgk org nyer memang ok cumer sebelom ni dgr2 org ckp yg pompan ni gila cam phsyco!
So after few weeks like dat, tgk cara dia cam mengade2 pon ade. Kesian tol matair dia yg kene queen control!
Kalau ngah syg2, amboi satu dunia ko bilang yg tuhan da bagi ko sorang lelaki yg akan bahagia kan ko la, tk jumpe seminit, seminit2 tu la ko post kat fb kate2 rindu la, pi bila da ngah gadoh, satu dunia jgk ko sebarkan pai sumer org tau sal keburukkan dia. Pai dosa2 yg dia buat pon ko bilang org. Aduuhh!! Pai hilang maruah org tu ko cerita kan kat fb. Kalau aku lelaki, aku btol peh malu arh nk ade kene mengene ngan ko. Name jek gi skola ugama (ni pon aku tau sal ko post kat fb) pi bab malukan org, ko la diva menjatohkan air muke org lain! Sunggoh bodoh sekali matair ko yg maseh nk stick around. Camni ke pompan nk dibuat bini?? Kesian btol nasib ko wahai sang lelaki dpt pompan cam tu. Ish3

my worse day today.. woke up to find my throat in pain dis mrng, n afternoon, my girlfren is back to visit me for another week!

looks like it is time that i shud think abt quitting smoking.. my baby izam have been insisting me to quit n he get irritated wen i answered dat its not yet the time. He quitting also but even so, if im not yet gonna think of quitting, i was given some terms n conditions. number 1, 'no smoking allowed in his presence' it looks easy but for me, its kind of harsh.. i cant smoke in the presence of my parents n now him. number 2, ' he wont control his diet n start growing fat if i wont quit' well, i dun like fatty bf so its another harsh condition for me too.

having said all this n currently suffering from sorethroat, i m really going to quit my smoking habit. maybe for now, i'll try to smoke 2 stick per day n see if i can maintain this for a mth.. i must do this! it will save my life n money!

now, i'm going to say the pledge like those on TV!



Adios!