U are my past tense

Hey you! Yes you! the one who i left 2 years ago! my collegue saw u, n so sad that u ignored him. not even a smile or hi. it shows how arrogant and anti social u are which i've already noe from the start. Looks like u have job hopped nearby our hotel and too bad i saw u too at the food centre. no, im not gonna say hi or hello or smile at u. coz the relationship i wished we had, gone bad. really bad.

U had been hated by me and my fiance. coz what u did to us was such a disgrace to your ownself!! poor thing. look at wat ur mum had turned u into. I was hoping for a clean and peaceful separation but u and ur family had shown dat in that bunch of bananas, all of it was bad inside.

what is more sad, my family cant see that coz dey had seen too much of that 'bodek' of urs which i tried to help u hide. everytime we had a fight, u told me not to show it. everythime i was homesick, u wont let me go. everytime i asked for a separation, u go on crying n tell ur mum abt it.

U had made my fiance's name turn bad. u managed to put him as a bad impression to my family. u backstabbed me to achieve wat u want. Oh my god, i didnt really see dat coming wen we were once together. thank u for making up stories to my mum that u saw me and him checking in at a hotel. thanks for convincing my mum dat i was pregnant to his child which had made me no choice but to ask for the separation and accused my fiance for stealing ur bike, which was bought wit my money! thanks for convincing my siblings that he stole me from u. last but not least, thanks for convincing my family dat i had chose the wrong guy to replace u! Thank you very much coz without u doing all these, i wouldnt have know that my new relationship is sooo strong that we overcomed all these which i think most guys would have given up. Now i realised that God had send u to test the strength of my new relationship to make sure that im making the right choice.

Another thing i wished i had told u, never been in my life, there are not a single cent saved when we had 6 months to our wedding date. and i am surprised u planned to loan thousands of dollars from the bank and how could u let me live in a life filled with debts?? Seriously, i am thankful. very thankful to Allah dat he had stopped our relationship and give me a better one.

My Downside

its the last few days to December and I'm having the downside of life. Money disappear reali2 fast and i can reali2 feel the pinch! but i have to stay strong. very sure at the end of the day, all dis will end beautifully.

Days past by and my morale at werk is getting thinner. in fact, i dont think i have anymore. i'm easily pissed everytime i give in to those stupid consumer who treat us like slaves in order to satisfy their needs. i had enough! been thinking lately should i juz pay the 7k and leave this place or drag my feet and body to werk every single day til 2013. i am so confused! i think dat i'm really at the bottom end, do not noe which path to go to.

I'm gonna skipped the company DND dis year. purposely requested to werk in the evening so i dont have to go to dat stupid party who celebrate the misery of their own staffs. feels very bad for our sister hotel's staffs who are not even invited to the party since the hotel is closing down at the end of this month. they shud at least invited them for the last farewell party. can u see how mean dis company can be??

Seriously, the more i criticise, the more hatred i have which made me feel reali wanting to pay dat 7 grand juz to get out of here.

Gonna ask for lil sis to help me with the resume part. Hopefully she wont say, 'gi la buat sendiri!' n i have to like search for a good resume template for me to apply a job which i had in mind. Dear God, I'm enduring all the challenges U have for me and i'm gonna take it with the strenght u have given me. I noe dat down the road, U have something special awaits to be mine. Something i've been longing for in my entire life!

The awkward moment..

At this point of time, i am blogging on this day, thursday, 10 Nov 2011. the exact date i will soon be someone's wife. exactly ONE year from now.. the time now is 5 mins to 0700am and i am werking on a graveyard shift waiting for my fellow collegues to pass the baton.

12 months, aka 1 year

Its NOVEMBER!! OMG 12 more months to go!! thats exactly 1 year from now.

BUT, to us, its less den that.. 8 more months to the weeding shoot, which means, DIE DIE must lose 10 kg at least before the shoot! I really need someone to slap me upside down to stop eating unnessarily and start working out. if i dont start by now, it wil be a flabby woman taking photos by the beach in gorgeous wedding gowns. WAKE UP LA IZA!! I really coudnt understand, even me myself is soooo fed up with me being very stubborn! Hiakdush!!!

Btw, Its my baby sister 13th birthday and i suppose she will get her macdonalds n birthday cake later. Maybe I will get her a small cake or something since i have no prezzie to give her. time really flies before u can imagine which brings me back to the wedding in 1 year time. Urghhh!!! I'm feeling so stress in a sudden!

LOSE WEIGHT! LOSE WEIGHT! LOSE WEIGHT!

Otherwise,


You are dead!!